Every ounce of confidence I had actually managed to build over the past few months = gone. :)

It’s such a great feeling when people completely give up on you.

i should’ve just ended it all when i actually had the balls to do it. i’m so sick of feeling like this. i just want it all to go away. simple.

pissed doesn’t even begin to describe how i’m feeling right now.

so fucking sick of this shit.

I really wish I wouldn’t get so attached to everyone.

hopelesssssss.

I’m so afraid that I’ll never be happy. That’s probably what I worry about most in life. I’ll never know if I’ve made the right decision. It’s fucking terrifying.

Why can’t things just go back to how they were? My life was pretty damn close to perfect, and now I’ve lost it all. I miss summer. I miss you. And I don’t even know if it’s you that I miss, or just our friendship. I felt like I belonged. I felt like I was worth something. But, then, one day it was all gone. It still fucking hurts. I still think about it every day, but I know things will never be that great again. It’s a lost cause.. and I’m not ok with that.